Sunday, July 28, 2013

Almond-Poppy Seed Brownies

I modded one of my favorite brownie recipes to make these delicious dessert bars.

1 tablespoon instant coffee
1/4 cup hot water
3/4 cup butter
1 1/2 cup sugar
1 tablespoon molasses
1 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/2 teaspoon almond extract
3 eggs
3/4 cup flour
1/3 cup cocoa powder
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
3 tablespoons poppy seeds

Mix the instant coffee and hot water together in a small cup until the coffee dissolves.

Microwave the butter in a large, microwave-safe bowl for 30 seconds. Swish to mix. Microwave for another 30 seconds. Butter should be very soft and partially melted.

Add the coffee, sugar, molasses, vanilla and almond extract to the butter. Whisk together. Whisk in the eggs one at a time. Add the rest of the ingredients and whisk well.

Pour into a greased 8-inch square cake pan. Bake in a preheated 350 F oven for 45 minutes.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Birthday Update

Birthday week moves on.

Today, Joseph is taking Diana & me out for Diana's birthday. We were suppose to go to Thai Rose, but we may go elsewhere because Diana is not sure of her wants at the moment.

Monday, July 22, 2013

Birthday Fun

I am here.

Today is Diana's 43rd birthday, and the start of birthday week. JoAnn will be 17 on Thursday, and Ant will be 21!!! on Saturday.

Yesterday, we went to the beach at Fair Haven. Joseph came and Emma's whole family. Jenny and Aaron and Sadie came too at the last minute. (Lia was staying with them.) I grilled a bit, and we swam. We are going to go back in a couple of weeks, probably just the 5 of us, just to relax.

Today, Diana had special food for every meal. (That is what she wanted. :) ) She had super sweet cereal for breakfast, sushi for lunch, watermelon sherbet for afternoon snack and a hot dog bar for dinner. Her birthday treat was homemade chocolate chip ice cream sandwiches.

I am still not sure what we are doing for JoAnn's and Ant's birthday. We shall see.

Thursday, July 11, 2013


Writing is a way for me to explore and hold onto my thoughts.

Maybe that isn't quite right. Writing is a way for me to put my thoughts into words, to play with them using a combination of logic and flow, and eventually to let go. Sometimes forever. Often, probably, forever. Sometimes just for a while.

Lately, my time has been filled with earning money. We have problems supporting ourselves even though we are quite frugal. Lately though, I have been feeling like I am making poor decisions and need a path. That isn't quite right either. Lately, I have been feeling like I need a path, and decision making is excruciatingly painful.

I am hoping to take a short retreat in August. Right now, it is difficult for me to see how this will occur, but I feel that I would benefit from it so I am still walking in that direction.

My brain suffers from stress. My body does too. It is very hard to combat. I am looking forward to a few days at the beach this summer. Last year, I only went to the beach once, Green Lakes for my grandchildren's birthday party. If I manage to work hard and there continues to be adequate work and I don't get fired, I think I can slowly improve our financial situation. Any way that Ant of Diana helps out will be just that much better. I struggle though.

And often I cannot see the path.

That might be because I do not know what path I am following.

Monday, July 8, 2013

Random, Nothing Important

OK, I told Lia I was going to write a blog entry.

She asked what I was going to write about.

I replied that I didn't know. Probably how tired I was.

Today, I think I am twice as tired as I was yesterday. I am done though. And I had a hamburger although I don't remember it well.

Diana went to town today and got some library books and some groceries, and I finally had my hamburger! I need to figure out how to eat before so late though.

The End

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Random Blog Post 'Cause I Like Blogging

Here I am, finishing up another long work day. I took a half day off Friday and all day Saturday. It was, for the most part, good.

I am tired now. (Yes, a trend.) I am done fairly early. I pushed myself very hard. I worry a lot about the quality of my work. I always try my hardest, but I do fear being fired.

Now, I make dinner for Diana and me. We are having tilapia (which is baking in the oven) and coleslaw (which is chilling in the fridge.)

I can't think of anything interesting to write.

Oh, I was doing some research on colleges, and I was a bit jealous. Things were so disorganized and took so long when I went to school. Today, there are online resources that give you so much information! Many colleges have these online registration systems that search for courses to fulfill your unmet requirements. Everything is so laid out in black and white. There is no guesswork involved in any of it: application, acceptance, financial aid, academic planning, course registration, graduation, etc. I like things being all lined up in a row like that!

My ideal job would involve a few hours a day manipulating, organizing and using information in a non-hostile environment, and then another few hours doing something physical outside like building building stone walls by myself. Yes, I am an odd one.

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Rudy's, Tiredness, Friends and More

So I am once again tired, and it is also really hot here.

I did have a good evening. Joseph treated us to Rudy's and Bev's, and we met with Karen, Nicki and Marie, and met Aaron and Mike. (Any of those names may be spelled wrong!) I was tense. Oddly enough, I think it was because I wore a bra, and I realize that some may find that too much information and others may think it simply odd! I may have to once again re-evaluate wearing bras in terms of my personal comfort levels.

I did somehow manage to get all my work done, even with going out. But I am more tired and out of it than I have been all week.

Tomorrow, I need to go out again to a bbq at Diana's mom's house. I wish I was staying home because the thought of two days in a row like this one is seriously intimidating! I will somehow deal though. I always manage to muddle through. I believe everyone does.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

More Random Tired Ramblings

Well, it may be that it is just a wee bit earlier tonight, and I am just a wee bit less tired!

We have been plagued with mosquitoes all week. Usually the mosquitoes don't start attacking until around 7 p.m., but if it rains they come earlier, and it has been wet nearly every day! I am dealing, but I always feel itchy.

Today, Diana went to town to visit her mother. She did our laundry because our aging washer is failing rapidly. They also went to a funeral. That was her real reason for going. Aunt Mary died. I believe I only met her 3 times, but she was a nice lady, funny and interesting.

Monday, July 1, 2013

Tired Again

Perhaps someday, I will return to more interesting blog topics than how tired I am. Right now, it is get up at 7:15 and work all day. I am lucky if I can complete all my work in time to get in bed by midnight!