This year, I am participating in a project of my own design called Project Finish.
"Finish" is my word of the year. I don't remember who started the "Word of the Year" idea, but it is suppose to be an alternative to new year resolutions. The idea is that you choose a word, and then throughout the year, you think of it and use it to improve your life. I have been using this idea for several years now with words like smile, safety, space and celebration. This year, I chose finish.
For a long time, I have been dissatisfied with myself for having trouble finishing things. Yes, I am smart. Yes, I have a knack for learning, for knowing how to do thing, for sharing and for helping other people see how to do things and finish their own projects! I, on the other hand, usually stop near the end of any mission and never go back.
I sort of feel like I am actually incapable of finishing anything so I decided to prove myself wrong!
I started the year with a few "finish" goals, and I proceeded to learn a lot about what is required to finish. First, you have to be ready to ask for help even when it isn't easy. I hate asking for help. I want to do everything myself, always. I can do everything myself (that is until I can't.) So I have been learning. I also learned that if finishing is the goal, a rigid timetable is only going to be an obstacle. For example, many people start writing novels during National Novel Writing month. The vast majority of those who do not finish their novels during the month, never finish their novels. They missed the deadline so they figure why keep trying. A third important lesson has been that you can control your actions but you can't control the results of your actions. In other words, you can say that I will finish each day this week having averaged eating only 1500 calories a day. You can't say that I will finish losing 2 pounds this week. The first item you have tight control over; the second is the result of many variables, and may or may not occur in spite of your actions.
So, I have revised my project as I have gone along, I do feel that it has been a positive factor in my life this year. First of all, I have learned how to make money as a writer/editor/research. Not just pocket change, but enough money to make it worth my while even when it isn't easy or fun. And second, I am starting to realize that finishing maybe isn't always that important anyways! (Not that I am giving up!)
This week, I have been taking some time off from being super project oriented, but I find myself itching to return to the project tomorrow. Here is one thing I am changing up at this point. My finishes are going to be simple one week projects. I have discovered that I can do anything for a week. Usually that is enough time to see how it is going and revise if necessary.
Here are my project tasks for this week: wash all dishes at 9:15 p.m. each day (I love waking up to a clean kitchen), wash and hang all laundry everyday, write a blog post everyday, earn $92.40 through my primary freelance site each day Monday - Friday, take a daily walk, follow my Diet Power program each day, "water" my Japanese exercises on Memrise daily, and then on Saturday work on my goals for next week and set about planning the day with my love that I have planned for next Saturday!